careful now

careful now

remember when you thought the last one was the last one?

“what a relief,” you told yourself

“i’ll never have to worry about falling in love again”

 

don’t let this one in so easily

remember when you thought the last one was the one

there you go again

rearranging your meaning of the one to fit the new one

again

 

you open your heart wide and you shove him inside,

before you even know if he fits

before you even know if he’s worthy of the width

before you even know if he’ll be safe in there

what if he’s too weak to survive in the dark

what if he’s too weak to survive in your heart

what if he rummages around and breaks something

 

careful now, girl

when will you learn to be as careful with yourself

as you are with everyone else?

 

you decide he’s what you want

but you wanted something different before him

is this the problem or the solution?

is he rearranging himself to fit into your heart

or are you shrinking and growing your heart to fit around him

 

if he’s worthy, it will be worth it

but if he’s not, you’ll have to fall out of and into love all over again

when will you realize falling breaks things

and falling again won’t fix them

 

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When it all becomes too much to bear…

Remember that you are loved.

Remember that you were loved before you were born, that you are loved for who you are now, that you are loved for who you will become, no matter who that is.

Remember that the amount you are loved is not based on your performance.

Please remember that you deserve love because you are you.

It’s that simple.

You deserve love.

Remember, even if you don’t feel it, even if you feel weighed down, even if you don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel, it’s there. Maybe it’s just around the next bend. Maybe it’s around 10 or 15 or 100 bends. But it’s there.

Remember, you will get through this, just like you’ve gotten through every hard time before.